life... and my trip down the stairs

Nolan is visiting Grandma Kathy. He was very excited to share with me all the fun things they have planned. It's funny cause when he is here he seems like such a big boy next to the babies but on the phone he still sounds like my little baby. I miss him. I miss his little ADD self running around and bouncing off the walls and begging to go play outside. :) He will be home on Friday. Jim is bringing him when he comes to visit.

Link is doing good still has the swollen node although it is a lot smaller right now than last week. The ENT has decided that we are going to go ahead and perform surgery on the largest lymph node to have it biopsied. It scares me but I just have this feeling in my heart that he will be okay. He has also go a bit of a rash that I am trying to clear up... hoping it's not a yeast related rash. :/ grrr He was in a diaper for a while while I was doing hair at my mom's. I don't think his skin is used to sitting in a gross diaper. It's already looking a lot better but I still see thrush on his toungue. I want the new Dr to see it so I haven't even tried treating it.

Dylan is stuffy again. Fussy and I am hoping this passes quickly. I don't want him getting another ear infection...

and then there is me. I tripped and fell down the garage stairs with an armful of hair product with the kids in the car. I just sat there on the floor stunned thinking I had just broke both of my ankles but I am okay. I ended up going anyway and did hair for 7 hours then drove home. I am proud of myself for making it there for everyone that was counting on me but I am thinking now I should have rested. I am pretty sure I broke my left toe. It's black and blue and all the toes are swollen. My left ankle seems to be sprained. Even though I was on my feet all yesterday the adrenaline has totally worn off and I can hardly walk. I tried walking on my knees and now I am pretty much crawling around the house to tend to the kiddos. I pretty much have gotten everything in one spot and that has made it a lot easier. I am on the couch surrounded by two sleeping little ones, diapers, wipes, powder, nystatin, crumbled up egg that Lincoln spread everywhere, cell phone, house phone, the remote control and a pen and paper. Going to the bathroom has been interesting since we have 3 levels. I have resorted to crawling up the stairs and then bouncing down on my butt all while hoping that Lincoln isn't squashing Dylan. I can't carry them right now... that's been fun. I can't wait for Taylor to get home so I can crawl upstairs and brush my teeth and have him make some food. I am starving... and I really don't want another hard boiled bright colored Easter egg... I should sleep while these kids are asleep. I was pretty uncomfotable last night on the couch and everytime I would move in my sleep the pain would wake me up. So much for pain meds since I am nursing the baby! :)

Quick update just so i can refer back to dates if I need to

We are all getting over a cold... still.

Dylan has thrush still congested still bad poop

Link is runny and a tiny tiny bit of congestion

Nolan still has dark circles and dry patches on his face

Called Dr #1's office for exact results of blood work and exact allergy #'s from test done in Sept. and IT WAS NEVER taken. Even after I specifically asked "HOW WAS THE ALLERGY TEST" and she said "all tests came back normal." idiot. I am so mad at myself for not asking to see proof of this test. Aren't we supposed to trust our dr's?? Had she completely forgotten what she said she would test for and then just saw too many people in between visits and had forgotten that I specifically asked for him to be blood allergy tested with that lab work and she said she would?!?! F I was SO MAD. I went in yesterday to get the kids files from her office I am SO DONE WITH DR #1. Picking up the kids medical files tomorrow. Can't wait until May to get this show on the Road with Dr#4. Hoping there won't be a Dr #5

Hi world... I am in a better mood today!

Made these amazing peanut butter cookies tonight. Google "paula deen magical peanut butter cookies" They were bomb diggity. That means very good. :) Heaven for me since I have been craving a baked good. Of any kind. It's been a while since I have had a bite of bread or cookie or ANYTHING breadlike since I gave up wheat. Of course most cookies have flour and that's a no no right now. These cookies were so easy and delicious! Nolan and I went to church this morning. Taylor was upset at us for leaving. I don't care anymore. I am going to start going alone. I have been asking him since we got back together if he would go with me and he won't. So today... Nolan and I went. :) And I am so happy that we did. Nolan had a great time is his 2-3 grader class. He even had 2 friends from school in his class! He had a lot of fun and asked if I would buy him a bible since he didn't have one. He wants to go back next week! I am so happy. :) I really want my kids to go and have the morals and values taught at church. :) The little ones are still sick but doing better. Dylan is stuffy and still has thrush but I am happy to say Monistat (crotch cream) worked a miracle on his yeast diaper rash! It kicked the yeastie beasties butt in about 24 hours! So happy about that! Still has thrush in the mouth but he is doing okay. :) Link has a cough still and is coughing and sneezing like it's goin out of style. I think I may try a netti pot on him tonight to clear out the gunk. He just looks so miserable. I feel horrible that he is getting over a sinus infection. :( Taylor and I had a long talk today and worked out a lot of issues that are going on. It was much needed and time for us to vent. We had a great rest of the day making dinner together and just hanging out on the couch. <3 I love him... but he sure can be a butthead. Feels so good when things are good! :) Nolan has come downstairs about 50 times tonight for random reasons.. the kid just will not go to bed!!!!!!!

My washer is eating my clothes

It's eating holes in my clothes and one of my favorite shirts has a tiny hole. Lincoln just said "oh wass dat mommy" then he stuck his finger in it and ripped it into a whole the size of a dime. Thank you Lincoln. Little monster! :)

sicky kids day 5...

I feel like a dispensary! I am loving my chalkboard frigde to document who had what when. Allergy meds, antibiotics, probiotics, nystatin... Man alive every 12 hours, ever 4 hours, 4 times a day and at every diaper change. Goodness gracious. :) But... they are doing better today. No high fevers for a while now. Nolan-game today which I am missing to take care of the babies. I don't like missing his games. It bothers me and I hope he understands that I would be there if I could. It has been freezing, windy and rainy. I was hoping this game would get rained out but it didn't. Taylor is head coaching today and we are on snacks. Hope they win and I can't wait to have them home so I can hear all about it. Lincoln- boogery mess with a sinus infection green snot and a cough. Dr at a A+ urgent care prescribed him amox and an allergy med to help dry up his gunk. Sick. It's draining out of his eyes in the AM He slept really well despite being congested Dah- Slept well. Still having to wash dry and apply cream at every diaper change and his thrush rash is getting a little better as long as I don't skip and check his diaper every 15 minutes or so. Lame. I hate thrush. He still has it in his mouth but I don't think it's going to clear up 100% till the amox is done. Gave him tylenol last night because he was crying in pain from what seemed to be his ears. He won't lay flat while he has an ear infection. Me... I'm tired and Lincoln threw his sippy cup at my face this morning while I was sleeping. I have a lump just under my brow bone and a red line across it. Overall I slept well even with Taylor gone at work and 3 kids in my bed. All the kids and myself are now on probiotics. It is even helping Dylan handle the amox it seems. His poop isn't as bad. I am so happy my kids are feeling a little bit better. This medicine schedule is exhausting me though... but it's working

Amoxicillin-love hate relationship!

So my diet has been the same. NO WHEAT NO DAIRY and Dylan was finally starting to come around! Finally could see some "fatty deposits" in his stool instead of green slime and now tonight it seems to be that directly after his amoxicillin he is having horrible stools again. I HATE THIS. I hate that I am trying so damn hard and it's not working. Sometimes I feel like I am doing this for nothing because the results are so slow. I eat dairy he bleeds so I know I have the proof. I go off of wheat and it clears up even more but nights like this make me want to punch something. I was googling like crazy every single thing I have consumed over the past few days and I'm clear. I know it's the medicine and it seems other parents are having the same issues with amox and their milk protein allergy kids. UGHHH Why the heck do you need to add malt (dairy-in some brands), food coloring and so many additives?! I was going to wait to start the kids on probiotics but it's looking like their little systems (at least Dylan's) can't handle this amox. His thrush is getting worse despite being treated and now he has a yeast diaper rash. I am so torn. After seeing him so uncomfortable for almost 3 days and knowing he has a painful double ear infection I just want to help him heal. I will go as many days or the full 10 days if I think it's helping but if I see blood again I am tossing the antibiotics in the trash. I am SOOO MAD! I wish I had a Dr to call but I have tried calling the dr's office and when I say we have IEHP they say that the soonest we can be helped is 2 weeks. They refer me to urgent care but these kids need a Dr that can see them same day and that will have a chart on them to help me piece all of this together. I understand our insurance is for poor people but my kids need a dr. Don't take medi-cal if you don't like dealing with medi-cal patients. So Dr #3 we won't ever see and Dr #4 we don't have clearance until May 1st. I can't wait until May 1 so I can start them at Dr.#4 that also has a holistic and allergy background. CAN NOT WAIT. Until then I feel once again like my hands are tied. The GI Specialist STILL has not returned my calls and when I look him up online he has 2 stars out of 5 with over 20 people rating him! Fabulous! With amazing comments such as- "thinks he is God" (sounds like a great dr, right??) and "tries to prescribe over phone so he doesn't have to be bothered with office appts." (now I know he is capable of phone use so CALL ME BACK!- Don't make me drive to Riverside with my sick crying kids) The other day when I was at the health food store the lady noticed the white patches on Nolan's cheeks and "allergic shiners" under his eyes and asked if I was aware that it is also a sign of a food related allergy and said I should have him allergy tested "just to be sure". She was very nice and very knowledgeable but I know she was thinking "I hope this mom realizes that this is effecting all of her kids and not just the babies". I know this... but how do you make a kid change his eating habits while his dad is popping pizzas in the microwave and chowing down fast food. Seriously... you don't want to read my blog when I vent. I am in a horrible frustrated mood dealing with 2 kids that are sick and having no sleep since Tuesday. So enough for now... I am putting myself in a bad mood. :(

OHHH YA!!!!!!!

We have got good poop! Seriously! Since the end of February tonight diaper was the BEST I have seen. No blood and hardly any mucous! The things that sucks is that I cut out wheat. The thing that's great is that it's working! I am hoping and praying that it just gets better from here. Good job Dylan for making good poop. Very weird but I am very proud of your body. :) LOL Link's had a fever on and off for the past 2 days. Hoping whatever he has he is able to fight on naturally. I am on the lookout for anything that might land us in urgent care. So far it seems to just be a fever, cough and runny nose. If it continues I will take him in. Dylan cried all night long. I tried holding him and sleeping sitting up and everytime i slipped down too low he would wake up. During the day today he would not let me put him down. Happy Dah was not so happy. We grabbed Nolan from school, went to urgent care. Dylan has thrush (this I knew) and a double ear infection (I had a feeling). We were prescibed nystatin and amoxicillin. After that I went to the health food store to get some probiotics. Never used them before but I hear it works wonders to get your body back on track so you don't develope thrush. We are already a step behind since he has thrush prior to this round of antibiotics. His thrush makes it hurt to nurse. His little mouth looks like it has white patches and they almost look like sores. I very easily can contract thrush from him so I am having to wash and sanitize everything. Sometimes that means running around with my boobays hanging out so they can air out! LOL Taylor just thinks I am crazy. :) In the process of all of this I got my tattoo worked on Sat night I was favoring my right breast for nursing since it was sensitive on the left. I am a loser and ended up with mastitis on the Left from not nursing on that side. DUH! Reef is iming me on facebook gotta gooooooo!

Damn Soy Milk.

So once upon a time Lincoln was on rice milk and doing amazing. Then I gave him soy milk. He didn't seem to do well on it and cried at night a bit. Back to rice milk. Did great slept amazing. It's been about 4 weeks and we ran out of Rice milk and he has has soy almost all day about 4 times today. He keeps tossing turning and crying out in his sleep. He wants nothing to do with me. Just keeps screaming "Owww" and "NOOOO!" I HATE when he is uncomfortable. I had a feeling it was the soy last time and he is doing exactly the same thing after drinking straight soy. It doesn't seem to bother him in small amounts in food. hmmmm hate this. :(

Wheat...

Going wheat free... Lots of fruit, veggies, chicken, quinoa, lentils and beans for me. Wish me luck. Going to try at least 2 weeks and hope I see a bigger improvement in Dylan. Cutting out dairy has helped immensley and when I have it. I see blood the next day. It's connected no doubt but his diapers still are not perfect. There is no visible blood. So I know it is not just dairy that he is sensitive to. I have been putting off giving up wheat because it sounds hard and I don't want to fail honeslty. But I know I need to do it. So here it goes... wish me luck and PRAY that this helps Dylan. If it does... food allergies will be solved!